So here's the thing about The Falling Woman
. I'm having a dilemma. I am so, so close to finishing
, but every time I try, I can't. Part of this, of course, may be the classic "I'm afraid to end the story!" (variety of your choice), but even though the things that are left are purely emotional threads that really won't require a ton
of alteration (reunion, restoration, return, that sort of thing), I find myself banging my head against the wall going, "The structure is wrong!"
See, I know the first draft is supposed to be your "discovery draft," the one where you just get it all out and get to know your characters. For the past few weeks, though, I've been mulling over backstory. I've suddenly figured out what the relationship is between ( spoilers? )
And now that these really critical threads are clear to me, I'm tearing my hair out because everything up to now has been wrong.
Well, that's not true. Not at all. But I want to start fixing things now.
I know what happens next. I could list it all out for you if you wanted to know, in exquisite outline, even if I can't seem to get it out in a draft. It's frustrating, because I know intellectually that it's copping out to not write that last scene, to not show the confrontation, to not show our protagonists emerging somewhat victorious. Readers, you've been true champs, and I am so, so
grateful for those who have been following and commenting and discussing with me. I don't want to let you down. But I love editing, and I want to get in there and whip this baby into shape.( Some more thoughts )